Tuesday, January 14, 2003
	: 22:55 : Bookshelf of Lost Dreams
	I'm thinking maybe it's that times article just linked to about the unusually greyness of this winter in nyc is giving license to my previous blahs to become all out blues. Maybe it's that I can't help feeling completely lost at sea in my so-called professional life. Don't get the wrong idea, it's not that I *want* to work or anything, it's more that the general purposelessness is hard to muscle through everyday. I narrowly avoided a third existential crisis today by pulling out all the books from my bookshelf that I either never read or never finished, and moved them to the new bookshelf I put up yesterday. The new bookshelf is right in the front room. It's one of the first things you see when you walk into the apartment. From a feng shui point of view this is a very important spot. It sets the tone for the all the chi in the apartment. Now I haven't decided if having to face three shelves of unfinished books is going to be a good impetus for reading all of them (and not running up my credit card at the bookstore), or if I'll walk in and twice a day be reminded that I've been 150 pages away from finishing Gravity's Rainbow for over four years and the thought of reading one more page is impossible to bear. What do you think: Is it a noble goal to finish all the books you started (or bought on a whim and then put aside indefinitely), or should one just accept that some things just weren't meant to be? And why is it that I feel slightly guilty about having books in my shelf that I haven't finished. Like I'm claiming to have read things I haven't. Like I'm pretending to be smarter than I really am. Like it's a big scam to the world. Like the world is making weekly visits my bookshelf anyway. Right now I'm alternating between A Theory of Semiotics that dear Steve from Seattle, WA sent over and The Black Book which I borrowed from my mom (which I also happened to give her for her birthday last year) and i can't quite get into. And then I'm playing with the idea of taking a stab at something on the Bookshelf of Lost Dreams. In the spirit of inter-activity let's let you the readers decide. Following is a partial list of the contents of my unfinished books bookshelf. Vote early. Vote often. What should neille read next? A Theory of Semiotics : Suck it up learn something for God's sake. The Black Book : Read someone from your own forgotten country for once. Ulysses : You were going to be the first to person you knew to do it of your own accord and now look what's happened. Journey to The End of the Night : You think you were bummed before? Three Books By Amiri Baraka : get down with the revolution already. The Naked Lunch : Are you a literary tripper or just a dirty druggie for god's sake. Gravity's Rainbow : 150 pages separates you from the realm of orky snottiness - get it together. Screw this reading shit. How will you have time for CSI: Miami? The last one : : Clear Winter Days The next one : : Unreachable

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	June 25 : Mmmmm... Snickers Ice Cream Bars... June 17 : At The Races!!" May 7 : John Kerry Is A Douchebag But Im Voting For Him Anyway.com good stuff April 14 : Slate on TV Donald Fires Himself Why the two Apprentice finalists are so un-Trumplike. By Daniel Gross March 23 : Girl's pants catch fire on E train "She was wearing a puffy white parka and a pair of jeans that apparently had been intentionally ripped in several spots, leaving jagged, fringe patches. It was not clear if those were the same pants that had caught on fire. " March 10 : More proof of my dorkiness, but this is pretty neat. March 5 : Snoop & the Olson Twins... speechless. February 12 : Sweeeeeeet. After 3 months of constant phone calls, whining, yelling, and a blow-job to the super (no - he don't have that much clout, but i did answer the door in a towel and it may have helped), I'm getting a new stove!! Woo hoo!! Apple Crisp for everybody!! February 10 : I was working 'till 11PM while my boss was at the MSG Chris Rock show, but this NY Observer piece (oh well - link expired) made me feel like I was there for like a minute..